The only thing constant is change.....

A friend of mine on a message board shared this quote last week:

"The secret to changing your life is in your intentions. Wishing, hoping and goal setting cannot accomplish change without intention. What is needed is a shift from the inert energy of wanting to the active energy of doing and intention."

—-Wayne Dyer

That totally hit home for me, as my hopes, dreams, and goals have been big and my intention has not moved from the dream into the action. I am not keeping up with my training schedule.... I'm running twice a week, three times if I'm lucky...totalling 9 - 10 miles on a good week. And, my friends, that is not going to get me to the 25K finish line. I can give all sorts of excuses... hurt foot, busy schedule, full time employment, family obligations, loss of my father-in-law.... you can see the list is lengthy. But, truth is - I just haven't moved it from dream to active energy of DOING!

So, with that being said, I am not going to beat myself up nor am I going to give up completely. What I am going to do is change the goal to one that I can achieve in the time I have left before May 8 - and adjust my bigger goal from there. I decided I will shift my 25K to the 10K, which is 6.2 miles. While that sounds so much shorter, and it is, I know it's still more than I am doing at this moment. This allows me to achieve a short term goal - and then I am setting my sights on a 1/2 marathon in the fall. There are several to choose from... Park 2 Park in Holland, Chicago 1/2, I've heard Lansing has a nice 1/2, Detroit has one and Grand Rapids has one! LOTS of options!

So, I will say, I feel like I failed. I set my sights on the 25K. I wanted that. I told so many people - my facebook world, my Weight Watchers world, and this blog world - and I am no longer going for that. I thought telling all of you would MAKE me do it, MAKE me be accountable. I still didn't create the time to do the training I needed. That makes me sad and a little frustrated, as this is my normal mode of operation and I was hoping to go beyond that.

However, I am feeling better than I have in a long time. I've learned that I CAN run, push myself harder than I thought, and I may just be able to teach an "old dog" new tricks after all! Physically, I haven't lost a lot of weight, but I feel good. Less tired and run down, as long as I'm not eating pure junk. :-) And, I know doing the 10K this year doesn't mean I can't do the 25K next year and the next and the next!

So, while I do believe the only thing constant is change, I'm going to go with the flow and keep on keepin' on. Forty is the new 30, right? :-) I still have plenty of time to conquer the world, one day at a time.... :-)

Hugs, all!

Happy Monday!

Angie